It sure has been a little whiles for me on the blog over here, but it was one of those breaks that I honestly needed in order to get some of the big stuff figured out.
In the space of three months i’ve had to find a new place to call home, rent a new apartment, get a job and figure out what I want the next chapter in my life to look like. And for that reason, the best decision for me was to take a step back from writing about my life, in order to actually get my life back.
So, I feel like I should fill you guys in on everything in between, and all the new news!
If you’ve followed my blog, you would remember that I was living in the Lake District, truly one of my favourite places in the world, by far! However, back in March I had an accident where I severed some nerves in my left hand, ultimately meaning I had to leave my job to focus on having surgery, recovery and time to heal….it was a stressful few months to say the least.
Ultimately what followed was a sort of realisation, where as sad as it was, I figured that what I needed right now, just wasn’t in the lakes for me anymore. I loved the place with all my heart, and still miss it dearly, but it just wasn’t where I needed to be right now. Admitting that was a hard step, but once I did, it made it a hella lot easier to leave!
What followed was a month spent back at home in London, with Andy and I trying to figure out exactly what we both needed from a place in regards, to work, access to the outdoors and our overall sense of well being. Guys, we literally drew up lists and weighed up the pros and cons of various places in the UK. Things got real.
In the end, Sheffield (south yorkshire) came out on top for both of us, and so we set about starting our new life here, and moving sure was not easy! It took us ages to find a place, jobs we were both happy enough with and then figure out the logistics of moving all of our stuff up there. Honestly, we are still trying to figure things out even now.
But, it’s been a month in and things are finally starting to settle down a bit, enough so that we are finally back out there having our adventures again.
A big thing for us, was being able to live in a place which was aesthetically pleasing, with good access to somewhere that had great walking/running/climbing. And since Sheffield is literally right next to the peak district, it ticked all our boxes. The city is also pretty much in a punch bowl, so walking up any hill leaves you with the most stunning views.
It’s funny, I am not a city girl at all, I hate cars, mess, pollution and noise, and it’s definitely been an adjustment moving someplace where all these things occur on a daily basis. A part of me definitely felt as though I was losing my identity when I finally admitted that maybe a city was what I needed right now. Could I still be a nature lover and city worker? Can I really stand the thought of working back in a more fast paced/business the environment? Will I mind commuting into the city centre each day? I’d be lying if I said it’s all gone smoothly. I’ve definitely had many moments of self doubt here, thinking that I was making a mistake, missing my old life and struggling to adapt to a new work situation and make friends.
But, i’ve also had moments of clarity, of feeling perfectly at peace, a sense of belonging and of being home. I’ve even had the chance to reconnect with an old friend who moved to the city several years back.
If i’ve learned anything these past few months, it’s just how many possibilities there are out there for you. I never thought that I would be where I am now, and actually not just be getting through the days but enjoying them too. My life is by no means perfect, but i’m pretty darn proud with how it’s turned out.